the best summer ever; because of you.
My first summer with you, was also the best.
For I learnt how to love, and how love feels like.
I had my first kiss, my first touch, my first hugs.
I learnt that to love someone, you learn to let them go.
I learnt that to love someone, you learn to let yourself go too; for them.
whispers of summer
her story
friends
birdsongs
memories
sunrays
sometimes what i want to say isn't apparent through what you just see(:
Monday, August 31, 2009
looks like falling stars will just keep falling..
sometimes you just wonder if you ever grow up and learn from your mistakes.
used to be that i'd just say whatever i thought, in all my innocence.
you just don't think before you say anything, girl.
so i tried. i stopped saying anything i thought would be hurtful or insensitive.
looks like it never works anyway;
doubt just works its way into wherever it can.
yeah, you just don't think before you say anything, stupid girl.
perhaps i should just go all out and hide everything i have to say
perhaps stock answers are just what people are looking for
perhaps, like how certain lit teachers mark lit essays, they're not looking for your perspective at all; they're asking you to echo theirs.
perhaps.
before someone tells me -
dammit, you really don't think before you speak, you IDIOT.
sometimes i feel like i'm haunted by doubt and fear; and they appear when i least expect them to
or maybe it's just me
for i'm extremely vulnerable to emotional highs and lows these few days
then again, does that even matter already. 7:15 pm
Saturday, August 29, 2009
one summer's day
so many things in too short a time..but i still am thankful.for God has kept me by His side all this whilefor He has given me strength when others are weak, that i may give them strength too.and for the two angels that are always with me when i need them, too♥--------heard this song on the way back, some chinese song my dad used to sing when we were young-童年时候多自在 样样都可爱歌
哥哥天天上学去 我等着他回来词
我问爸爸何时我也让那校车载
爸爸笑着对我说 一步一步来
上了学校才知道 考试不可爱魁
上课总是看手表 哎哟假期几时来
我问老师何时才能将那方帽戴
老师笑着对我说 一步一步来
太阳下山明早依旧爬上来
夜里不要通宵看那录像带
花儿谢了明年还是一样地开
考不好未必有机会重头来
十七八岁多古怪 学人谈恋爱
情书写了十多封 在车站苦等待
吃饭跳舞真不坏 送她回家说 goodnight
她的妈妈开门说 你给我一步一步来
毕了业我才知道 社会更可爱
应徵前后几十次 只有一次没失败
薪水不敢说出来 夜里要把工开
现在行情坏我的老板说 你要一步一步来
太阳下山明早依旧爬上来
星期天能不能慢点爬上来
花儿谢了明年还是一样地开
哪家公司今年又将人员裁
结了婚我才知道 什么叫做债
老婆总算娶回来 没钱生小乖乖
家具电器真不赖 价钱更精彩
夜夜缤纷看开怀 其他一步一步来
什么时候驾着车往儿子学校开
放学的儿子告诉我 他明天考天才
天才不是人人做 平凡也不坏
我说搭巴士也要把队排 你要一步一步来
太阳下山明早依旧爬上来
高楼再高它还是要爬上来
花儿谢了明年还是一样地开
只要空气还没污染得太坏
太阳下山明早依旧爬上来
我的青春匆匆地铁那样快
花儿谢了明年还是一样地开
人生最好还是一步一步来 and i was thinking-太阳下山明早依旧爬上来, 可是时间过了就不回头来; 花儿谢了明年还是一样地开, 人生最终要珍惜才不后悔...
bottom line; unexpected things happen. and since we can't ever predict anything, it's best to just treasure everything you've been blessed with thus far, and never take them for granted. for even the littlest things count...[dragonfruit is now the best expression of love, if you ask me; the last thing she did for him.]--------magnificent clear skies and lush green fieldswhite fluffy cotton clouds and crisp summer airsuch a beautiful day, it was.but it was so, so surreal.. 9:45 pm
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
chocolate.
chocolate.
perhaps i should stop writing so much-
experiments with bittersweetness mean
i just end up obsessing with darker and darker chocolate.
and my last piece of chocolate shall be nonexistent
not in this world, at least;
for it has kept too much of my bitterest ones. 12:14 am
Monday, August 03, 2009
inkheart [encrypted]
i will survive.after all, when life gives you lemons, make lemonade.if the lemons have turned as juiceless as stone, then rememberthat life is like a diamond; for only after intense pressure and strain does it gain its eternal lustre. 3:04 pm
Sunday, August 02, 2009
peace.
peace.zhaokai got me stuck on hillsongs again, by virtue of last friday's freeblock where he randomly asked eugene to play one of their songs on his guitar.
it's a good thing, and i'm glad he did, for i found a few nice songs that i've been putting on repeat since ytd.
been taking comfort from them too, and just in general using them as a refuge from all the things i've been upset with this couple of days..
honestly it's awesome, the amount of inner peace you can get just through prayer; praise the Lord. sometimes when i'm tired of just about everything, it's where i get my strength from(:and i suppose they'll still be on repeat, for these few days at least, while i ask for forgiveness for all the hurt that i've been causing.i hope you realise that i don't want to see you upset, much less make you upsetbecause i love you. 7:08 pm
Saturday, August 01, 2009
it doesn't matter.
it doesn't matter.honestly.think back and talk to me
do you think i'm wasting my time
doing things i wanna do?
but it hurts when you disapprove
all along.
and now i try hard to make it
i just want to make you proud
i'm never gonna be good enough for you
i can't pretend that i'm alright
[i'm sorry; i can't be perfect.] 7:11 pm
Monday, August 31, 2009
looks like falling stars will just keep falling..
sometimes you just wonder if you ever grow up and learn from your mistakes.
used to be that i'd just say whatever i thought, in all my innocence.
you just don't think before you say anything, girl.
so i tried. i stopped saying anything i thought would be hurtful or insensitive.
looks like it never works anyway;
doubt just works its way into wherever it can.
yeah, you just don't think before you say anything, stupid girl.
perhaps i should just go all out and hide everything i have to say
perhaps stock answers are just what people are looking for
perhaps, like how certain lit teachers mark lit essays, they're not looking for your perspective at all; they're asking you to echo theirs.
perhaps.
before someone tells me -
dammit, you really don't think before you speak, you IDIOT.
sometimes i feel like i'm haunted by doubt and fear; and they appear when i least expect them to
or maybe it's just me
for i'm extremely vulnerable to emotional highs and lows these few days
then again, does that even matter already.
Saturday, August 29, 2009
one summer's day so many things in too short a time..but i still am thankful.for God has kept me by His side all this whilefor He has given me strength when others are weak, that i may give them strength too.and for the two angels that are always with me when i need them, too♥--------heard this song on the way back, some chinese song my dad used to sing when we were young-童年时候多自在 样样都可爱歌
哥哥天天上学去 我等着他回来词
我问爸爸何时我也让那校车载
爸爸笑着对我说 一步一步来
上了学校才知道 考试不可爱魁
上课总是看手表 哎哟假期几时来
我问老师何时才能将那方帽戴
老师笑着对我说 一步一步来
太阳下山明早依旧爬上来
夜里不要通宵看那录像带
花儿谢了明年还是一样地开
考不好未必有机会重头来
十七八岁多古怪 学人谈恋爱
情书写了十多封 在车站苦等待
吃饭跳舞真不坏 送她回家说 goodnight
她的妈妈开门说 你给我一步一步来
毕了业我才知道 社会更可爱
应徵前后几十次 只有一次没失败
薪水不敢说出来 夜里要把工开
现在行情坏我的老板说 你要一步一步来
太阳下山明早依旧爬上来
星期天能不能慢点爬上来
花儿谢了明年还是一样地开
哪家公司今年又将人员裁
结了婚我才知道 什么叫做债
老婆总算娶回来 没钱生小乖乖
家具电器真不赖 价钱更精彩
夜夜缤纷看开怀 其他一步一步来
什么时候驾着车往儿子学校开
放学的儿子告诉我 他明天考天才
天才不是人人做 平凡也不坏
我说搭巴士也要把队排 你要一步一步来
太阳下山明早依旧爬上来
高楼再高它还是要爬上来
花儿谢了明年还是一样地开
只要空气还没污染得太坏
太阳下山明早依旧爬上来
我的青春匆匆地铁那样快
花儿谢了明年还是一样地开
人生最好还是一步一步来 and i was thinking-太阳下山明早依旧爬上来, 可是时间过了就不回头来; 花儿谢了明年还是一样地开, 人生最终要珍惜才不后悔...
bottom line; unexpected things happen. and since we can't ever predict anything, it's best to just treasure everything you've been blessed with thus far, and never take them for granted. for even the littlest things count...[dragonfruit is now the best expression of love, if you ask me; the last thing she did for him.]--------magnificent clear skies and lush green fieldswhite fluffy cotton clouds and crisp summer airsuch a beautiful day, it was.but it was so, so surreal..
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
chocolate. chocolate.
perhaps i should stop writing so much-
experiments with bittersweetness mean
i just end up obsessing with darker and darker chocolate.
and my last piece of chocolate shall be nonexistent
not in this world, at least;
for it has kept too much of my bitterest ones.
Monday, August 03, 2009
inkheart [encrypted] i will survive.after all, when life gives you lemons, make lemonade.if the lemons have turned as juiceless as stone, then rememberthat life is like a diamond; for only after intense pressure and strain does it gain its eternal lustre.
Sunday, August 02, 2009
peace. peace.zhaokai got me stuck on hillsongs again, by virtue of last friday's freeblock where he randomly asked eugene to play one of their songs on his guitar.
it's a good thing, and i'm glad he did, for i found a few nice songs that i've been putting on repeat since ytd.
been taking comfort from them too, and just in general using them as a refuge from all the things i've been upset with this couple of days..
honestly it's awesome, the amount of inner peace you can get just through prayer; praise the Lord. sometimes when i'm tired of just about everything, it's where i get my strength from(:and i suppose they'll still be on repeat, for these few days at least, while i ask for forgiveness for all the hurt that i've been causing.i hope you realise that i don't want to see you upset, much less make you upsetbecause i love you.
Saturday, August 01, 2009
it doesn't matter. it doesn't matter.honestly.think back and talk to me
do you think i'm wasting my time
doing things i wanna do?
but it hurts when you disapprove
all along.
and now i try hard to make it
i just want to make you proud
i'm never gonna be good enough for you
i can't pretend that i'm alright
[i'm sorry; i can't be perfect.]
i'm just the girl in the corner, the girl with the wistful eyes;
jiaying
seventeen! but that'll change on 220910 xD
rafflesian
113'05, 210'06, 315'07, 415'08 10S03P!
redcrosser passed out;
tribunist [vchair yay :D] said farewell;
but i'll never forget those days(:
archer! :D
still a writer, yep.
save me...
absolutely deranged
chocoholic
shopaholic
complete psychotic
stress-hater
panicky [i'm serious.]
unfortunately, more often than not, a broken rose.
... before i drive myself mad.
je t'aime;
rgsrcy
tribune
rj archery!
writers' guild!
reading! xD
dancing <3!
singing
going on facebook and playing random games there HAHA
grand pianos [oh, nothing beats a grand!]
black; pink; chocolate brown :D
astronomy; knitting; archeryyy(:
pool; bridge; mahjong! xD
chemistry! [favourite subject (:]
needless to say, we must never leave out the two essences of life, chocolate and shopping! i can never do without
them hahaha(x
for all life is a dream, and dreams themselves are only dreams;
ra science nahh no chance alr. but nevermind(:
>3.6 gpa [HAHA YES I DID IT FOR SECTHREE!(:]
tribune chair vchair's good enough. and in any case, my term's over anyway.
>3.6 SECFOUR gpa! YES I DID IT AGAIN! :D
rj chem ra! thank God i got in! :D
or uwc nordic! didn't apply; decided that specialising in sciences was the wiser choice, given my inaptitude
for humanities ><
rj dance! street/intl also can :D :Dbut nevermind, because rj archery pwns all now!
not forgetting the typical wish for world peace, duh. (:
and i wish i could have him. or at least, if we're not meant to be, someone to love
and to love me back. &it's true that love ends up being a battlefield sometimes, but it's still love; blessed
love.
for we were meant to last forever;
i find my paradise when you look me in the eyes-
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